A Tentative Reunion...

Well, I've survived my 20th birthday and am now once again looking at the prospect of all the uni work before me...oh goody...*lol*

Actually I'm not too stressed about it. Well I AM, but I'm fairly confident I can get it all done this term without needing any extensions. I have an annotated bibilography to do for PTPC ("Performance Theory, Practise and Critique" for the uninitiated) which involves reading about 10-15 books before 17th February in order to write a final 3,000 word essay for April. That's the main thing at the moment, and it's going to take up so much time! Don't know how I'm going to manage all my mentoring work, too...I'll keep you posted!

Jay and I have had a somewhat tentative reunion. We spoke over skype a couple of times (both voice and instant messaging) and he finally managed to persuade me to unblock and re-add him to msn. I don't think I've quite forgiven him for the comments he made, but at the moment I'm managing to forget them for 99% of the time. He's had a few more outbursts of jealousy since then, although I've encouraged him to talk about them; at times he's seemed quite reluctant to do this, but I'm hopeful that we'll make progress. As far as I'm concerned we already have, in a way - I told him to tell me what was on his mind re: my going out to celebrate my birthday on Monday night, and he told me he didn't want to as it would only make him angry. To my mind, his being able to do this - as opposed to just going ahead and getting hopping mad - is a great leap forwards. There's no 2 ways about it, his jealousy - at times exasperating, at others annoying, sometimes endearing, most of the time unfounded and uncalled for - does wind me up. He seems to think that the only reason I ever go out is to - in his words - "manhunt". Whether or not he believes me, I'm faithful to my heart, and my heart only loves one man...

So, a tentative reunion; taking each day as it comes, one step at a time; hoping that somehow love will see us through...

xXx

Mood: "Cautiously Content"

(Posted @ 11.51pm GMT)

P.S. Tragic about Whaley earlier this week - time to do all we can for the rest of the whale population! xXx