Don't Want To Rush, But Can't Hold Back/Time, What A Fickle Thing/That's Why When We Get Married We Wear A Circle On Our Finger And Not A Triangle

What IS it with falling in love? The more you do it, the more folly it leads you into...having loved once before, you'd think I would learn...

I guess I have learned. I've learnt caution in matters of the heart, I've learnt to always try and be on your guard, and the end result of all this is that I've also learnt to be afraid. It's not much fun, but I don't really have much of a choice. I loved Craig and he left me...maybe through my own fault, but now I'm petrified of giving my heart again. Which is what makes the present situation so hard.

Let me illustrate:

A+B are together
C is falling in love with A
B and C are friends...
but B knows that A has feelings for C

Following so far? I want to be with a certain Someone, but that Someone is with somebody else. I know he's torn between us. He's admitted it. What do I do? I can't get hurt again, and he's promised he won't hurt me. I keep asking him to sort things out, and I know we both hate me asking, but something's got to be done because it's not fair on any of us. Did I also mention he lives on the other side of the world? Yes folks, it's THAT complicated.

"How can she fall in love with somebody she's never met!?" I hear you cry. Well, that's the problem. I just don't know, but I am.

Laura, Rachel and I have been talking about Our Men and we're all in predicaments - Rachel and Stu have been having a few problems, Laura's in love with an old school friend of mine and can't get over him, despite the fact he's at university and got another girlfriend, and there's me and Someone. The general consensus is that we all want to go to sleep and wake up in 5 years, because it'll all be over, we'll know how it ends and we'll have slept through all the nasty bits.

Waiting for certain Someone to finish talking to his Somebody Else...keep you posted!